Re-learning Kindergarden Lessons

This past week has been a huge growing experience for me. Last week was very difficult. It seems that to join in a conversation at school you have to be complaining about something because that is all we talk about right now. No one scan talk about TV shows or going home or anything else for that matter because no one has any time. So we talk about the one things that we are all focused on: micro and how much it sucks.

Well, joining in on this little ritual was very costly for me. Everything got worse because of it. And, therefore I had more to complain about. And the cycle continues. I know that this is old news, everyone knows how this works but I don't think I have ever experienced it to this degree. You see, as a result of my decision on find the negative, that's all I found. I ate poorly because, "What's the point?" I didn't want to study and procrastinated worse than normal (which is a lot!) because "it doesn't matter, and I don't care anymore." To sum it all up, my anxiety level went through the roof and my energy level and mood went through the floor. It seems that during micro, everything is amplified and this was a prime example .

So, in the middle of this week, I made a change. I began to just thank God for who He is because I was having trouble finding things to be thankful for. Each day since then, I find more and more things to be thankful for. I remember all the ways that I am bless each and every day. I also learn these viruses and am thankful that I will not personally experience most of these viruses. These will not be my daily battle as they will be for some.

It is amazing the simple concepts that take so long to sink in. So, this week, I am on the battle of the mind. I can stay positive because my God is positive. I can quote scripture and know that it is true and that it does matter. It matters the most! So, as I am unable to attend church yet again (and I truly truly miss worshiping to the music and during the sermon), I'll have my own church service here for now. Enjoy your Sunday.